why am i still counting?

It's been years..
It should've been forgotten..

But I haven't forget..
In fact, I'm still counting..

Day by day,
Month by month

Year by year,
I remember..

I know I should left it all,
Bu why can't I?

Every time I hear the name,
Every time I hear the date..

I know I'm still counting,
But why am I?